- - I love flowers. I find the names of them fascinating and the colours, smells and emotions I get from them beautifully fascinating.
- - I still love disney films & kids programmes, they help me loosen up a bit and see the world as a little less serious, which I need sometimes. These include Scooby Doo, Sabrina the Teenage Witch, Goosebumps (though hardly relaxing, but you know what I mean, escapism), Pokemon (a fav.), Magic School Bus and sometimes Winnie the Pooh.
- - I hate that I know the big wide world, it can be a very evil place. But love is my aim and my goal and I believe I was put on this earth to spread the love. if I touch one person deeply, then I've done my job. I want to make the world a better place. Not to say I never feel vengeance, I'm only human, but my love and affectionate nature overpowers any revenge I may seek. This does not mean I'm overly religious, as I'm more a spiritualist than religious, more of an Agnostic not disregarding any religion as they are in many ways, seeking similar goals. This also doesn't mean I can't stick up for myself, I can. It just means... I want better for us all.
- - I often wonder what my Granddad (died of Cancer when I was 2 1/2) and my uncle Gregory (Who died when I just about turned 3 in a car crash at only 18) think of me and if they're proud of me. I cry often when thinking of them and the pain they must've felt before dying and how my Mum hurts about Grandad and Dad about Gregory, as Dad and Gregory left on not so good terms. Everytime I visit Gregories grave, I cry. Whenever I tell of my Granddad offering his eyes for me before he died, as I'm partially sighted, I often get really emotional especially when drinking.
- - I am a true empath, which follows on from a lot of the points above, especially the one directly above. I can feel others pain, I literally can. It radiates off people. I will feel the need to cry if a child is really sad about something, I can just... Get it. I also am an agony aunt, which helps in respect but not in others, as it's hard to distance myself. I try my best to keep control of this. I also have bouts of Psychic ability, though this is not controlled and mysticism. If there is a ghost, or should I say more a spirit, which can include demons, angelic presences or lost souls - I will sense them and they are drawn to me.
- - I have an opinion on everything, but this doesn't mean I'm right and I accept that. I also have a creative mind and can make anything into a story, a tale or a poem most of the time. When I get writers block, it's like my soul is ripped out of me. Creativeness is my purpose in life, except of course the ultimate love goal.
- - I want to be published some day. Either a novel, or a poetry book. I also write lyrics though and prose. I write most things in most genres, at some point.
- - I recently have begun to love the radio.
- - Mangos are my favourite fruit. I also love Tomatoes. I don't like Sweed much as it's pretty much flavourless and only eat broccoli if getting the little cousins to eat theirs, otherwise I will avoid them like the plague. I used to love Kiwi's and still do in mixed fruit, but not on it's own. I also love Watermelon.
- - Lasagne, Chilli, Shepherds/Cottage pie & cheese and chips are a few of my favourite foods. I do love Pasta in general though. Slow release, healthy and good for you. Low calories too.
- - I drink, but I don't smoke. I have kissed a smoker before and hate it and therefore can't date a smoker. If you smoke and I'm dating you, I will know. I am sensitive to smell and hate smoke. I hate my Mum smoking, but she wont stop. I wish she would.
- - I love music in general, a little bit of everything, pretty much literally.
- - Due to my empathy, love and the philosophy you treat others how you want to be treated, I have a high tolerance/patience level most of the time. However, when really stressed (which normally happens when I bottle things up and they just explode after months and months of this holding in) or when pushed too far, I will lose my patience and hell help you when I do, that's all I've got to say.
- - I don't believe loads of makeup makes you prettier. A little here and there is okay, if that's what you want, but loads of slap don't make you prettier. Your using a metaphor... You dislke how you look so you're covering yourself up, just in layers of fakery and this is not prettiness you are getting, it's fake confidence. It's only those with low self esteems in my opinion, who use loads and loads of makeup. Otherwise, they wouldn't care what everyone thought. I know I don't. I'll wear a little bit occassionally, not overly kean on how I look but I respect I was born this way.
- - I would never get cosmetic surgery, unless it would save my life. I just hate it.
- - I love kids and animals. Anyone who mistreats kids or animals is on my black list and this list, when you're on it, is very hard to get off. I will not hesitate to give a thump to someone who beats up a child or animal, no matter how big or powerful they are.
- - I love Psychology. I'm taking it and have an exam in 2 days time, my last one for this year... WOOH! But I always have, ever since my sister did it when I was younger. I used to always read her books, even when 8/9. I will be doing A2 (Advanced Level 2) next year and if I get a B or A, I may just go to uni.
- - I am open about most external things about me, but my inside emotions keep bottled up. I tend to generalise my inner emotions, making others think they know a lot. Such as 'I feel kind of lonely'. They know I'm lonely, but not why and not who I want, this is safer for me. I hate the idea that people could use information against me, as they've done it before.
- - People have called me a slag and it's mainly due to what my ex partner has said about me. I think he is an absolutely twat and stands for everything I don't like in a human being. Violent, fakes love... He is a rapist of both me and a special needs person who he dated and also has looked up child pornography. It angers me above all else when people make excuses for him and say 'oh he's harmless' or 'he knows he's not perfect'. That doesn't justify it. I've been in a few violence/sexually aggressive relationships. Well, 2. I wont let that happen anymore and especially not to others. People say 'you don't have to take responsibility what Karl, your ex, has done.' But for some reason, if he does something to a girl, I take responsibility and don't know to this day.
- - I talk a lot, you can see this.
- - I type quick, lucky for you :]
- - Usually, if I say you did badly, I am in a bad mood. If I said you did okay, that's what I mean. If I said you need work, I will explain why and in a nice way. If I say it was good, it means I enjoyed it but it's not one of your best. If I say it's excellent, it's one of your best I've ever seen.
- - All you have to do is message me for advice or a chat and I'll talk to you. I have several people who already do this and I hope to think I give good, helpful advice.
If you want to know anything else, just ask
+++Short Poem+++
I was told each time a bird sings,
a miracle is born -
I wonder how many birds serenaded
your smile, when all your 1 pound 5oz was in the world
and how they weeped when you were nearly gone.
Each time you visit my house, the seagulls are louder
they are welcoming you to your rightful place,
my home and my heart -
they're telling you you were born for a reason
to save me from a thousand million liars
and to find someone to give me reason
to smile in the rain.
Silver trophy winner
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