Me, myself and I
Waking up every day just to feel more pain
A lot of thoughts roam through my mind
Suicide, Pain, Love, Life, Friends, School, Family, The future and
The memories that haunt me from the past
Isolating myself from friends and family
Every day they have a puzzled look on their faces
Wondering what could be wrong with me but
They never get their answer because
I refuse to tell them and
Show them the real reason
I feel like they will judge me and
Call me "crazy" telling me I need help
Sometimes I cut because I think it takes the pain away
Knowing that it doesn't
Regretting every moment I took just to
Make myself bleed and cry...
Love is the slowest form of suicide
It can be complicated at times
It can feel amazing when the time is right
Many people kill themselves because
They lost someone they loved very much
Broken heart, shattered into pieces
Memories of pain and sorrow
Rejoice within the mind
As the soul grows tainted and cold
My heart is broken
Bleeding from inside from
All the hurt and pain it's been through
Every day struggling to keep me alive
As the moments, minutes and seconds go
My heart beat grows fade
The air I breath slowly gets thicker
Suicide is a serious crime
People think it's funny until
It happens to them
Life is full of surprises
Like death brings pain
A lesson in life people must learn
Is never put your heart in someone hands if they don't know how to hold it
Everyone makes mistakes, no one is perfected
Forgiveness is meant to be said as "We learn, forget and move on"
Like being in a relationship
When you make a mistake you learn from it and
When forgiveness is said it makes the relationship stronger than before..
Looking into a mirror at my own reflection
I ask myself why I am still here living, breathing this air
Many people deserve better
Much more than I do..
Life is meaningless whenever you feel the pain
As I sink into a pool full of my own blood and tears
Stained all over the walls and floors
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May 13,2009( 9:19 p.m)
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''Love is the slowest form of suicide'' That line really struck me. Love is the most wonderful thing you can expirence in life, but in the end, it always ends up in pain. That's my opinion, anyway.
Anyways. I felt that your writing was very emotional, very heartfelt, but cripplingly sad. Which was what I was looking for, so, I'm not gonna complain about that.
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No problem and I am glad you enjoyed it
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awww i'm reading your poem, and as i go on and on i have less to say about it. Your a good writer and however you were writing this stuff, with your emotions or thoughts, i think it's realy good. I've felt this wat, though i've never really hurt myself. But at times i've thought about it, it's never really happened. Your a great writer keep it up.
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Thanks for the comment
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i wish i could say i know what you are going through and say something comforting but all i know to say is that i am here to talk if you want to. and i only no part of what you are going through not all so yea.
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Thank you so much for the support
and the sweet comment!
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I wish you could stop being sad I'm here for you if you ever need to talk
-Steve-
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Thank you so much for the support Steve, I am okay I was just venting on how I felt and yeah I know I will lighten up soon
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Aw Maria. I'm so sick of all this stuff happening to you. I don't even understand why it's happening. Then again who understands anything that anyone's going through. Except God and Jesus of course but yeah...I'm sorry about whatever's happened. This is an amazing poem by the way.
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Thank you for the comment. I know but I am tired of you getting hurt as well but things will get better for both of us eventually. It's apart of life I am always going to be here for you though
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Yeah. Things have to get better eventually. Good thing there's some reason for all this pain.
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Nice doen maria i love it.Its so realiztic.I know how u feel.If u need to talk to someone talk to me ok.(hugs)ur such a great friend.I think ur a great writer.Nice job.
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Thanks
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ur welcome just being honest.
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maria this is a great write it just makes me want to take all your pain away you deserve happiness not all of this pain
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Thank you for the comment Bobby. I know you do.
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maria lovely...
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thank you ashley
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I just want to just hold you my love,
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This is an excellent take on life in general. I just wish I could make some of your pain go away. You're a sweet girl and you deserve to be truly happy. I think you'll make it there some day. I'm here to help you see that day.
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Awe, thank you for the sweet comment Tom! It really means a lot to me Thank you for caring and always being there for me when times go rough and I didn't understand what was going on. You're a wonderful person as well and don't let anyone tell you other wise.
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Love it, Love it, love it! One of the best free-verses I've read, ever! Amazing.
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Thank you so much Eddie, it means a lot to me that you like it
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A lots of thoughts roam through my mind
"a lot"
I think that it is really deep and emotional. I can see the pain within it and that you keep sinking further down in this pain. The ending really catches my attention. "Life is meaningless whenever you fee the pain..." thats my favorite verse. Great write. Keep up the good work.
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Thank you so much for your comment
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Aw sissy I understand this.
I felt like I person that was five feet under, and going down a little more every day. I got the point where all I wanted to do was die. And one day my mom pushed me over the edge, she didn't know this because she didn't know what was going on. But at that point I just kept saying in my head like a broken record I want to f*cking die. When my mom and my sister finally left and I was home alone I started screaming and crying. Asking no one why am I still here, I can't do this, and I want to die. I looked at myself in the mirror cursing asking why are you still here you have nothing going for you. You should have had the world at your feet but you lost it. You lost it when you were six. And it's too late to get it back. I sat on the toilet thought of ways to die, which ones would be the fastest, painless, less of a chance of it not working...
But the truth is it's never too late. And memories, you have to leave them.
If you need anything I'm here I love you
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I can relate to how you feel sissy Thank you so much for always being there for me. I am always going to be by your side as well I will never leave your side and I learn suicide isn't the way. God will always be in my prayers and guide me through the dark tunnel that shows me the sunlight at the end of the tunnel. I love you too
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Awe, I can relate to the feeling a little bit too well. I have been down that road sis but I wasn't alone because you were by my side. Facing the pain with me. Telling me everything will be alright in the end. Please don't give up on fate. I love you and I am never going to leave your side. I promise. <3
- Ana ♥
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Awe. I am sorry you and your family has to go through this pain. It feels like you are hurting more from it. You are not alone never forget people care and love you
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So heart breaking and full of sadness . I am sorry you feel this way. Sissy I know things are hard since Freddy tried hurting himself. He will be okay don't worry. Just stay strong and be positive things will be okay sooner than you think. I am always here for you if anything. I love you
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Omg.. Maria this is so heartbreaking. Im speechless. This is so true and so .. WOW. Im sorry if you feel this way. I LOVE this poem. Thanks for sharing it. Its so sad tho.
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