Gesu, Ascolta Me (Jesus, Hear Me - This Poem Is English)

Well...

Catchy title isn't it?
They say that it's good
Means "Jesus, hear me"
And hear me He should

I'm so frustrated with all of this
Just about had it...
"Keep believing"
But you don't understand it

I want to be happy, really I do
But finding it is the trouble; and keeping, that too
Don't know if I'm really heard...
Do You hear me up there?
When I come to Your house crying
Cause life's too much to bear

This, I don't think, is something that will go away
It's an unsurmountable problem I face each day
Growing up I thought would be easier
But now I know that's not true
Wish I could place the blame somewhere
But that I can't do...

Are You really there?
Or have you forgottten me?
I know I'm inquisitive... but it's the only way I can be
Wish we could know what happens in the future, see?
Life's like a TV show with no ending
Till we're too old to care
Or we die reprimanding with a cold, solid stare

Is my life paralell to a wingless angel, heaven sent?
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Is that a dream my life can plan yet?
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Did I ever thank you for the gift of life?
Don't think the agnostic side of me forgot...
The gift of life I was given
From the words that He brought
The gift of happiness, short-lived for now at least
That served its purpose and brought me peace?

Now if only I could find it again
I'd be just fine
"Keep believing"
Whatever
It feels like I'm dying...