Devoured

The pain of rejection what can I say/
It's enough to cause a person to cry each and every day/
But after you cry there's still the pain/
Like a bullet and obviously your heart is the aim/
No specific reason you rather be/
Convicted of treason in century 18/
So I write and hope that I can release/
My frustration and confusion maybe I should just drink/
That might make it better for a short time/
Then again it won't it hasn't at any time/
Prayer seems.. Well pointless cause I fail to see the point/
If I was God I'd hate me lol I'm not him so I don't/
Many nights I wanna die but something in me won't/
My heart and my mind just don't connect/
My hearts' so weak my mind is wet/
Full of tears spewing up from my heart/
I wish it would just break stop beating and fall apart/
So then the pain would end the suffering would stop/
But knowing my luck life would just begin again and be worse than all this. Apart.../
Apart from the sadness the stress and the madness I have a perfect life/
Dreams shattered thoughts battered the cats chasing me and I'm a mice/
So I stop running and crawl in the light for the cat to consume me bite by bite/