something a little off-key

my life is on pause
and every heartbeat on repeat
you're the melody I just can't touch
but I feel it, from the back of my mind
to the soles of my feet

the record player never stops
but I just can't seem to go
stuck in this black hole playlist
in a world that's never quite
seemed like my own

I wish I was more like you
with your words that seem to flow so easily
and I'm stuck here, pounding out a beat so clumsily
my brain keeps asking what's wrong with me
but my heart's so tired of the same old thing
stuck in someone else's love song

I don't know if you can see me
out here on the periphery
this sad, sweet do-re-mi for you
it's alright, I'll be here
if ever that song of yours should end
or you find yourself in need of a friend
to harmonize
and keep time
and make sense of broken lines

these notes I'm humming are for you