Dear Family &And Friends,
Its been months; almost years since you've all seen me cry but inside i've been holding back fears of living my life. Without him i am no one, only i can understand. You always told me to be myself, but i am afriad i cant. Reasons to live are at a all time low, while reasons for suicide are high. You were always the one to say that its a persons choice when to die.
Complaining is not what i want to write; Even though i should. Rather than that i would like to state my goodbyes and thank yous, only if i could. Times runing out, my clock is ticking. By the time you find this note; i'll be facedown and not living. I decided not to bleed, because i do it enough after all. Sorry everyone who didnt notice that big black hole in my heart.
His suicide changed me, completely &But none of you could notice. I lived with shame everyday, from losing my all time best friend. They always said "You'll be fine, hes forgiving you." Thats a lie, the people who said that so many times before never even lived my life. So how can they act like they knew what i was feeling?
To the friends who have been there; and held my hand during the rough. I would like to thank you, even though i already know its not enough. I can only imagine how you must feel when you find out all of the news, its okay i'm in a better place i've already paid all of my dues. Friendship is only a word; and forever can only be a day. I'm sorry for all of the mistakes and promises i've broken along the way.
Family; i must of been mistaken, you were always there. To lift me up when i was down, or to help me disappear. You held me close after gloomy break ups, when all i wanted to do was die.I still think its funny that you threated those boys when they made me cry. Over the years you seem to have faded as so did our relationships. Dont worry i wont forget you, after all family will always have a i in it.
Love; Must Be Mistaken,
Mashell.
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Hope you like it; i might add more later on
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{Dont worry this is totally not true, well its completely true. But i dont wanna die. (:}
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Comments
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Oh good heavens this was an intense write. I did notice a few spelling mistakes but That didn't stop me from reading. But you might want to run spell check through it. I am sorry that you have gone through this. Thank you for sharing.
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I'm very glad you don't want to die!
This is letter is so deep and full of pain. Great job here, good flow and imagery and raw emotion.
Bravo
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this is very powerful... almost brought me to tears... i love it!!!!
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thank you thanks
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omg i totally cried until I got to the end when you said it wasn't true.
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Aw.. Thank you.
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It was beautiful, sad, and heartbreaking...
you have a gift with your pen.
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Thank you very much (:
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this was amazing
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Thankies.
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I'm left speechless....this is an amazeing write. its different than what i had thought, but i really like it. keep writing
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Thank You.
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... wow this made me really cry *wipes away tears* great job I loved how you wrote it, like your final letter to everyone. I have a few like this, mostly staing that I'm sorry for being in their lives and making it hell. But thats my problem, great job
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hey i got your message..!!!wow it was a brilliant poetry...your an amazing poet...
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Thank You.
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Dun know what to write here. ,o.0
Oh my gawd.....made me sad....really impressive poem.
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Thank you muh loveXD
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Wow, such a powerful write. So full of emotion. I love this poem so much. I can relate to this so much. I know what you are going through young one. Things will get better eventually. Your friends are always going to be there for you even when you don't see them. Yes love may hurt but we have to show the world we can over come pain and love is a mystery. We can love anyone we choice to. And yes I too have a broken heart and feel like I cannot live without Camden but I am even if were just friends now. What I am saying is don't give up because maybe in the future that boy that hurt you will realize what he lost and come crawling back to you within time. So don't give up on hope. Stay strong. really enjoyed reading this
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No problem anytime dear young one. who's a friend of mine
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Beautiful
it really is beautiful, and thats all i can really say
all that needs saying.
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Thankies. (:
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beautifully depressing, it's like mellow glad, depressing. i likey, good job.
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Is likey a word, (: It sounds to much like Licky.. uhmm..
Thankies.
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