I cannot keep being brought back to this place.
This hole I have tried so many times to get out of.
Emotions I have tried to put behind me but cannot.
DAMN IT! No I don’t want to be in this hole anymore!
I’m not this person, I am not this way!
Why am I forever having fun then suddenly feeling like I’m worthless?
So many years like this,
Many years where I have been numb,
I wish I were numb right now…
This new rush emotions,
I cannot deal with them!
I don’t know what they are or how to deal with them…
Depression has kept me distant and emotionless for so long,
Now those comforts are gone and leaving me raw.
This cannot be a good feeling…
I hate emotions,
I want to be cold again…
So I don’t have to feel the things I do now.
Rogue Shadow
May 9, 2009
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I've suffered from depression since my early years of being a teenager. I just find it hard at times to deal with the things i do and try to live a life.
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