First Love

You’re the first one I truly fell for
And the one I’ll always adore
It was all going so well
Until I blew it to hell
I said I didn’t trust you
Then you broke my heart in two
We both know that’s not why
It’s just your little lie
You thought I was boring
And never outgoing
But my head was so wrapped around you
That I could never think of anything new
I couldn’t find anything to say
And so I led you astray
I wish you could have gotten under my skin
And wore my defenses thin
I was just too afraid
Without my fear you would have stayed
And it really hurts to know
That I caused you to go
I think of you all the time
How you could be my perfect rhyme
And when I think of that last call
Inside I start to ball
You said you wanted to be friends
But that is just the trend
It never works that way
No matter what words you choose to say
The more I try to forget about it
The harder my heart will hit
I always think of that first kiss
That’s what I truly miss
You taught me how a relationship should be
And now that’s all I can see
Sometimes I really want you back
But if I asked I’d have a heart attack
I know I can never take you back
Because my pride isn’t of lack
I can only give you one chance to break my heart
And once you do I can never allow another start
Every time I see you I start to melt
From the pain that you have dealt
You make it look so easy
But you always make me very uneasy
When I see you running about
I have to restrain my thoughts of screaming out
You want to have casual conversation
But I want to ignore the frustration
Of trying to hold back the truth
It’s like trying to smile with a broken tooth
Whenever I see you
I never know what to do
Should I run away
Or direct my path your way
However I always want you to know
No matter how far I go
You’ll always have my sweet side
Because with you my heart will hide