I Scream to the Heavens

I feel like I’m walking on broken glass
But what I’m on is all these unsaid thoughts
Building up inside of me
Being strong for the loss experienced by many
Putting my feelings behind those of the world around
“Forget about her, she doesn’t matter
I’m most important in my life”
This is all that I’ve heard and seen
As I continue on as I’ve been
Completely silent about the effects things are having on me
What I feel makes no difference in the lives of others
Why should I talk when no one is there to listen
Bottled up inside of me this pain
This feeling of responsibility

And I scream to the heavens
“Why God WHY, how could this be?
I’m down on my knees begging you please
Help me through this mess.”

The tension in the room is felt by few
Why oh why can’t everything go back to the days
When everyone was innocent and knew no pain
Then only then can I truly be myself
For at the moment everything about me
Is pushed to the back of the shelf
Those around me are brought to the center
My feelings matter to no one
Once more I've put all of myself
Into everything I do
Ive loved and cared too much
And received nothing but spite

And I scream to the heavens
“Why God WHY, how could this be?
I’m down on my knees begging you please
Help me through this mess.”

This time I’ve taken on way to much
No one told me to stop
I’ve added to my many feelings that are hidden inside
No one will ever know the fears that lie
In the depths of my heart
There comes a point when
The most kindhearted person
Will turn cold
And baby I’m almost there
Not that I ever wanted to be
But you push me far enough
You take away my right to feel
You’ll be in for a surprise so big
You will have no idea how to deal
For now you’ll know nothing
Is ever wrong with me
Cuz I’ll continue to live
As if I’m in perfect harmony
You’ll never see me fall

And I scream to the heavens
“Why God WHY, how could this be?
I’m down on my knees begging you please
Help me through this mess.”