Without you

Since you left, I have been trying to make sense of what happened. I try to write, but I'm incapable of writing anything but ragged rhymes even a child wouldn't be proud of. I talk and talk, but I'm ashamed to say you were my only real friend. You were the only one who really understood and never judged me though I may be very different from you. Even now I take two steps forward, and run back to where your embrace should have been.I have to tell you that the world has become too vast now that you are not in it. In your absence, I falter like a planet struck out of orbit. I fail like a star put out of allignment and I float aimlessly through this dark universe. Without you, I'm bereft of purpose and direction. Lost in a world that shows no compassion, no mercy, and I'm shrouded in my Aloneness. I scream, I rant, and rail and curse the unfeeling fates for leading me here. I weep, I cry, I sob, and falter again. I feel as if a blanket has been ripped away from me, and I tremble exposed more so now than ever in my forced solitude. I shiver as I lose myself in chaos. I try to cling to reason, but my heart's not in it.I want to cling to you now, but your not here anymore