Teenage Scandel

I was new.
New at this big school.
But its been 5 months and
I've finally found a friend.
Someone popularish but still
nice.
Someone to laugh, joke around, and
smoke with.

But if she found out what
I was doing behind her back,
what would she do?

I hate myself for it, a little.
But another part of me likes it.

Her boyfriend.
HERS.
Not mine.
We can't be seen together.

Her best friend is also my best friend.
Sometimes I wonder if he does
things with her too.
Does he?

Maybe he chose me because
he knew I was the
vulnerable orphan
that desperately wanted some
friends.

He said he didn't do
anything with his
girlfriend.
That he didn't
know why he was going
out with her.
That he didn't want to
hurt her feelings.

I know hes lieing to me.
Just trying to get more
and more out of me.
Pushing me to do it.

I haven't yet.
But i'm too scared to
keep saying no.
I don't want
him to tell her.
I don't want him to
hate me.
I really don't want
her to hate me.

And I don't feel
like having to skip school
in the woods anymore.
I think I got
poison ivy.