What Now?

A wanting spreads across my body
Ripples in the warm ocean
If I let go
I can never go back again.

I hold another close to me at night
But my mind travels
Set me FREE!
Allowing my existence to unravel.

I am lost in a place I have never been
I want this so much
I have been faithful truly
I also long for someone real to touch.

For my once upon a time is crushed
An implosion long ago
Has put me in this exact spot
With nowhere else to go.

Taking my eyes off yours in painful
My soul quivers by your touch
I never let myself imagine
I've been wanting you so much.

I place you in my mouth
Soft and sweet skin
Tickling fingertips
An undoubted sin.

I can feel myself losing control
I pull you close
Place your soul inside mine
Show me what you hunger for the most.

Push me down, Pull me up
Your nails drag against my skin
Your fragrant neck my soft lips
A gentle moan emerges from within.

Talk to me make me laugh
Run your fingers through my hair
You holding me tightly
A longing extinguished with no time to spare.

Let me sleep
Shove my troubles away
A bliss much to good for me
To stay.

What now?
I stop and think
A one night only taste?
Or shall I see him next week?