Ive Decided Now.

there's so many things I'd love to say,
to so many people,in so many ways,
in lovely sentiment,
or metaphor,
comparisons, descriptions that'd leave you in awe.

i would be on point, cause the point would not be missed.
talk of revolution, of love or passion.
to all i should have spoke to, confided in or kissed.
i would relive, and compliment,
ignite and inspire.
encourage hope in our youth, and applaud those i admire.

id love to take from you the legs you stand on,
with the things i choose to say.
tell her its her flaws i love,
truly something id never trade.

I'd love to show and voice my feelings
but it comes to a stuttering fear of what people think,
a million thoughts go through my mind in the time it takes to blink.
worries and apprehension
drowning in self conscious contemplation,

its not about confidence, but that shiver of doubt.
not of what they'll respond, more of what they would think,
how things could change
or how they'd see me,
how i could ruin what has, what could or what is meant to be.

there's so many things I'd love to say,
to so many people,in so many ways,
but for everything i could find a million reasons against it,
seems so much easier to sit in silence and never face it.

but for better or worse,
for love and hope.
for all the times i stayed silent to cope.
one by one, word by word,
I've decided now, to tell the world.