Sadness & Despair

Feeling so deflated no hope only despair
trying so hard to make it work
but it didn't get me anywhere

I thought i was doing so much better
thought I'd make it through
but now i know It's not enough
living i cannot do

I can only be myself
there is only one of me
i tried to do the best i can
for everyone to see

I feel that i am invisible
that no-one see's the real me
they only see my illness
and judge me on that, you see.

It is so upsetting i feel so low again
the black cloud hangs over me
the darkness pulls me in
I'd be better off not being here
the world won't let me in

but why won't you give me a chance
i am no different from you
it's just that sometimes i feel so sad and worthless
but that doesn't make me mad

I have the right to be happy
to live a life that's worthwhile
i have something that you'll never have
respect and compassion for others
to be there for them when they are in need of care.