Understand?

I stand
By the docks of uncertainty
Every step deemed as futile
As a baby learning to walk
With weak appendages
That do not hold her weight

I fall
Into the murky waters of despondency
Drowning slowly and painfully
In my own thoughts...
In my own life
In childish daydreams
In forgetting reality so often
Reality has forgotten me
And I cry myself to sleep

When did I become so dependant?
Relying on one person for my happiness
Bringing a feeling to my heart
That no one has before
A feeling that I am truly loved
That I will make something of myself
That I can do anything I set my mind to
A feeling that I am finally accepted
For who I am in this world
And not who I pretend to be
Fuck the rest of the world
No one understands me!