Hard Choices

I fell so hard today
Harder than ever before
For the one I thought cared for me
Couldn’t have more quickly moved on
There he was sitting side to side with her
This boy who was stealing my heart
And he just closed in

Time sank into space
As I felt my heart torn in two
Memories of the past
Haunted my every thought
I didn’t deserve this
At least I didn’t think so
What had I done to make him turn on me?
What did I do to make him run?

As time flies by
And I begin to move on
So does she
This girl of whom he was so fond
Then back to me he runs
Repenting along the way
Telling me he’s sorry
That he’d made a mistake

Without a thought
I let him back into my heart not stopping to think a thought
Not stopping to ask what I’d done wrong!
I pondered and pondered
These things of the past
Realizing as I went
That I’d been wrong to take him back

I screamed at myself from the inside
Tearing at my face in my mind
I ran to him and fell to my knees
Telling him all on my mind
My face drenched with tears
He stared at me in disbelief

I stood up to face him
Leaned in close to his ear
Whispered inaudible in it that I was sorry
Then I turned for the door
As he begged me to stay
I told him I have to go
Stepping out the door
I whispered under my breath I’m sorry and I love you
Then I never look back
I never tell him face to face
The reason why I left
I never see him again