Havok's Love

Can you see me
As I burn with rage
Like a god to be;
calm and vengeful as a sage?

So have I been cast away
without a single word for you to say?
Was it me or were we
really meant to be?

I am a devil juxtaposed
by divinity; holy yet demonic
I fight for my sanity.

I, the one winged angel, tail slithering
entitity become engulfed in pain.
Only that it is covered by the rain,
calm and peaceful I do not belong.

Covered in invisibility
I pray that I recieve some sensibility.
Only to gain insight
before I die of fright.

Can you tell me what is going on with you?

Because still I am puzzled and mystified of you.
I feel there is nothing more I can do.
Unless you shed some light upon me
and cast my shadow back into its abyss
I will know no rest.

Even as an enigma I will be put to the test.
Different than all the rest
I am calm and violent
I am strong yet pathetic
I am sad but mad
as to why I am confused.

Light my fuse and burn my fear
even if in the end you cause me a tear.
I am defenseless against you
so I ask exactly what will you do?

Will I continue to experience
this reign of pain?
Pain so great that I cannot eliminate.

Or sadly has my time come to end
as the reaper offers me means to make amends.

His touch so cold that instantly my heart has to fold;
when I hear the voices of the past
something inside explodes from a blast.

And there you are standing-
watching down upon me.
You break my shell of chaos and havoc
and have me standing before you.
Pure and bear you hold my heart
in your hands, what a prize.

Now with it can you choose my fate;
one to create or one to demicimate.

Love me or hate me
I will see
the true colors before me.