Adopted yes, but an orphan I will always be!!

Yes, it was you that left me in a crib at the age of three-
With my 5year old sister, Lucy to fend for herself, and for me.

What were you thinking?? Did you even care??
Unanswered questions!!  Such a treacherous snare!!

C.P.S.  finally notified, and came to carry us away-
For neighbors heard crying and wailing, day after day!!

It was just me, Bronchitis had set in-
And where were you mom?? Enjoying a world of sin??
Poor  Lucy- you left her alone-like she was grown!!
Did you forget she was only five??  She had no idea on what to do-
Did you really expect her to have a clue??

You could not imagine the pain we had to endure!!
You stripped us of our childhood-and for that, no medicine can cure!!
Oh, and did I mention we were seperated, and torn apart??
Yup, thats the system for you- We were in Hell right from the start!!

I met Lucy again, when I was thirteen-
The darkness in our eyes told of the horrors and tragedies unforseen!!
She was using drugs heavily, just to maintain!!
Wow-what do you know?? We were just the same!!
Both looking for a way to cope-
Both wondering if there was any hope??
We both suffered lots of abuse, and for that there is definitely no excuse!!
Our innocence just snatched away-
We became immune to our feelings day after day!!
Yes, different peeps, and at different times-
Doesn't matter how you look at it-it was all a crime!!
Our lives mishandled by the "families" they gave us to-
And yet, would our lives have been any better staying with you??

Lucy is now a Zombie-controlled by stimulants-
She can no longer function-she just babbles never making much sense!!
Yes, the drugs did numb the pain, but now shes in jail-
Wing E- the wing for the insane!!

Thanks so much-you should have killed us at birth-
Neither of us were given a chance to know the meaning of self-worth!!

You know what mom??
Reality sucks-thats for sure!!
I have battled with suicide since I was eleven-
Wondering if there is such a place called "Heaven"
I already know Hell is real- it's this place some call "Earth"
The place you dumped us-a few years after giving birth!!

Where are you now?? Have you ever looked for me??
My life is filled with so much hurt and pain-
I would give anything-to live just one day "sane"
But such is life-I suppose....
My wounds are deep-no stitches, nor mortal man can close.
Adopted yes, but an orphan I will always be!!
Because there is still no "mommy" just that abandoned child-still trapped in me!!