I'm Sorry

I stare at the blank card, unsure of what to write.
It's been some time since I've spoken to you,
But what do you say to someone you cant even bring yourself to see?

I feel sad that it's hurting you.
Yet I still cant bear to hear your voice.
It's still too soon to try and have a rational conversation. - Trying to Envision what I could say, but it all just seems to end in tears.

I'm not ready to hear excuses.
Not sure why this whole thing is so hard.

I'm not the kind of person to hold a grudge,

yet I'm not exactly sure what I'm expecting from you now.

Years have past, and I always kept my feelings to myself.
Bottling it up each time I felt hurt,
and keeping my thoughts to myself because I never wanted to upset YOU.

I'm not sure what I want from you,
but it tears me up inside that you just couldn't seem to say "I'm sorry".

I'M sorry for the pain I'm causing you.

But this wont be the end, I promise.


I just need some time to heal.

xXx.