What ever happened to me?

What happen to me?
I’m sitting here all alone
Thinking about who I used to be
I said I would never do it
I said I would make it far
But here I am sitting on a rock.

Where did I go wrong?
When did I start fading?
When did I stop caring?

Falling off an edge
Not knowing where I am going
I stopped worrying about my mind
I didn’t care if you took it all away
I didn’t care if I killed it with the drugs.

What ever happened to me,
And the blue skies that use shine from my eyes?
I promised myself I would get very far
But here I lay in a pile of dead memories.

Why did I give up?
Why did I let you take me over?
Why did I care so much?

I made so many mistakes
I knew the differences
I never cared what was to happen to me.

Never thought I was worth it
So I let you walk all over me
I gave in to you
Thought it was right
Thought your love would set me free.

What ever happened to me?
What ever happened to the fun I use to bring?
What ever happened to the peace I use to love?

I gave up all the things around me
I gave up all the things I use to love.

Didn’t care
No I never
Killed the brain cells
That use to make me who I was
Yes
I killed brain cells that use to hold everything.

I never really cared enough about you
Just thought you would have been the one to save me
Gave it all up for you
But I knew it was wrong for the both of us.

But I am just too selfish
And smarter then I gave credit for
Now I am just wasting away
Sitting here on a rock
Hoping for the best.

That’s where I go wrong
I have no control to get
Back on track
I just wish to be left alone
Sitting here in my space.

I have not felt what it was like
To show a real smile in so long
I think I know the cure
Maybe I am still trapped in this small space.

What ever happened to me and the happiness I use to bring?
Where did I go wrong?