ashes

im tryin to stand up
but this shits under the table
makin deals like its over the counter
im motherfucking unstable feelin the heat
i spit on the ground and look down at my feet
life is like a pack of boges gone before you know it
and when youre done all you got is ash
and nothin else to show for it
lungs black like ebony, theres no fuckin remedy
gather your memories
when the packs empty
throw it in the street
im tryin to sit down but youre in my seat
you spit on my shoes and you step on my feet
im sick of your abuse im sick of your routine
im fed up ive said it before
its over you fucking junkie you fucking druggie
you fucking fucked me but you never fucking loved me
id like to file a complaint,
ill write it on your wall in spraypaint
the fumes from that shit will make you feel faint
get high off my remains cuz thats all im leaving behind
theres no fuckin rewind button in life
so press play and enjoy the show
and cant you see
were all just characters in some other persons fantasy
a soap opera where everyone gets in fights
a cartoon with trippy graphics and flashing lights
like a cop car on a dark night
chasin after some guy who couldnt separate wrong from right
so he takes off puts his foot on the gas
and passes all the cars driving way too fast
says, im tryin to move but youre in my way
crashing into all the cars in the fastlane
burn me up and scatter me in your ashtray
like all the cigarette butts on the highway