You Use to be my Dad

When you look in the mirror what do you see
The face that stares back is old and tired
I wonder is that the man you wanted to be
To live your life likes times expired

You’re not the man I once knew
So gentle and kind
The father, the hero I looked up to
Somehow you’ve managed to leave him behind

I was once able to call you my father
But mentally he walked out a long time ago
So there’s no point to even bother
You’ve left me here to take the blow

You can’t miss something you’ve never had
That’s why it hard that you were there once before
I try to get past this without being mad
But the fact you were there cuts me to the core

So I block you out your nothing to me
But a lonely old guy
An unless the day comes where you finally see
I refuse to play this role and keep living a lie

You could say I was once a daddy’s girl
But I am not now or forever more
So…

I thank you dad for opening your pocket
Without ever even being aware
You gave me the key to mentally unlock it
So you may die a bitter old man
While I live free without this burden to bear