It's been six years to this day that you first said "I love you", and I'll never forget that. I was your treasured soul and you were never going to let me go. I knew this was love and not just pretty words, especially with your eternal promise and how shiny it was on my hand. You showed me a new kind of love and restored my belief in commitment and love.
[I was so scared at first]
Our first Christmas together, three years ago, I thought it was going to be great. I was so excited, being a newlywed and celebrating the holidays together. I was wrong though. Because the selfishness and greed of everyone's holiday spirit took you from me. Why? It's not fair. We were just beginning our lives together and now, it's too late. Now, I never look at the holidays the same.
God can keep me single. I'd rather stay that way. I couldn't replace the face of my first love with some guy who I know would be second rate. I'm forever numb inside. Every day, I am reminded of how much I love you and all the little things you did for me that made me smile. I miss you so much. Why did you have to leave me? I'm so lonely.
And as I fall to the floor in tears, trying to cope with things, still after this long, I think about every thing he's missed in my life. Wiping the tears from my eyes, I feel a small hand touch my shoulder, with a sweet and soft voice ask me, "Mommy, are you okay?" Trying not to cry again, I think about what he's missed out most on and how beautiful she is. She has his eyes.
"Yes sweetheart, Mommy's okay. I was just thinking about daddy."
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