What Happened

i used to be some guy
never talked much
never took to things like others
i was different then the normal

some teased
some wondered
some pointed it out

others tried to change me
others wanted me like them
others came and showed me

but along the way i changed
i got harder
tougher
taller
broader
tempermental
paranoid
deep

ME


"life ain't sun shine and ranbows;
it's a ver mean and nasty place;
it won't care how strong, and tough you are;
because it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanantly;
if you let it;
it doesn't matter how hard you can hit;
what matters is how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward;
HOW HARD YOU CAN GET HIT AND NOT GIVE UP BUT KEEP GOING FORWARD;
that's how you win;
that's how you get stronger;
that's how you can beat others"


this changed my life forever

this is a quote i still remember and will remember for the rest of my life
cause when i threw in the towel and said goodbye to boxing forever
my 13th birthday came and micky was there he saw how down i was
and he said this cause after the whole day
he saw i faked my smiles
he saw how empty i was

i figured the meaning out when i was in junior high
the kids took no mercy
and i got masicured with
crule jokes
teasing
name calling
and sticks and stones
punches and kicks
smacks and slaps

nothing stopped them nothing kept them away from me and pain

i became the pain boy always in pain
physical
emotional

but somewhere along the line they
went too far
they said the ultimate enrager
i went wild

a hot blooded hot headed bumb like me
GUYS LIKE US CAN GO MERCILOUS IN MILISECONDS
i nearly killed the bully

nothing can stop a hot headed bumb like me