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bourbon shots and a very hot fire


there is a fire
and it is glorious
and it will die at
the end of tonight.

I'm drunk and
alcoholic, but
I can stop whenever
I want. I just like
the spin spin
nauseous-ness the
toxic brings.

the group sings
a few words but
they are hardly heard
over the laughter.
it's funny, aint it? it's

not.

I'm caught on your
lap, in your arms,
between your
teeth.

"I like you a lot"
you barely breathe.
but I read between
the lines. and I
can't find an okay
response.

I'm glad. it's
a perfect night
for freezing.

but I'm already
leaving in my
head. in bed with
a strange man
I don't know yet
and I'm not sure
I want to meet-

you greet me at
the door. you
absolutely adore
me. and I'm
confused.

I've never felt
this wanted,
and still I'm
only kind of there
staring off into
a future that
doesn't have your
name.

the same as
I always do.
and it's true that
this could be it.
the real, let's-shake-
on-it deal.

honest to god.

but I'm fucked
up and can't
accept being in love.
it's never enough
to feel completely
and utterly content.

I've spent too
many months in
in my head. too many
days dead and rotting.

I'm clotting my
blood stream.

you look at me
and say how
lucky you are to
have me, and would
I like more to drink?

and I say yes
just to forget
how sick I am.



Author notes

“see, the months they don’t matter. it’s the days I can’t take.”
New American Classic – Taking Back Sunday

unfortunately, this is pretty much true, I'm working on it. A beautiful night though.

z i l l i o n

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Comments

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  • Antebellum
    June 13

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    I've never felt
    this wanted,
    and still I'm
    only kind of there
    staring off into
    a future that
    doesn't have your
    name.


    this part is amazing.
    Really liked the form.


  • libel -
    June 12
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    yesyesyes


  • heavenbird gold member
    June 11
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    oh yes.

    please wait for the other judges comment.


  • acoustical
    April 27
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    ahhh i loved taking back sunday. good song.

    great poem. seriously.


  • autarky
    April 23
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    i love this. no constructive criticism needed.


  • yael
    April 23
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    i.like.this.

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