Consensual

If I ask you for a million dollars
while you sleep off your intoxication;
if you make a noise in your throat and twitch-
does that count as your consent for me to take your million dollars?

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When he put his hand on my flesh
while I slept off my intoxication;
when I rolled over and sighed-
did that count as my consent for him to undress me?

When he silenced me with his hand
when I started to slowly wake;
as I tried to turn my head away-
was that my consent for him to take my body?

When he "shush'd" me by holding me tighter
as I fought to open my eyes;
while I stumbled to find my words-
was that equal to my consent for him to keep going?

When I pushed against his body
and attempted to sit up and away;
as I cried and shook as he put my clothes back on-
was that my consent for him to lie about it later?

When I shut myself in the bathroom
and let myself lose all sense of life in hysteria
as I dug my  nails into my palms-
When I laid numb against the wall
staring into the paint afraid to sleep;
When I fought nausea along the road to the hospital
and lost my voice in the ER-
When I scraped the skin from under my nails
and cringed at my bed being made evidence;
When I sat awake and waited
as my friend took her boyfriend's word over mine-
When I listened to my mother's cries
as I let her know what had happened;
While I cried myself to sleep
and woke crying still from nightmares every night for a month...

Did I give my consent for that?

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If I ask you for a million dollars
while you sleep off your intoxication;
if you make a noise in your throat and twitch-
does that count as your consent for me to take your million dollars?

Do you believe me when I say I know the meaning of consent, and

THERE WAS NO CONSENT!

Do you believe me?