love turned to lust

your lustful eyes shaded me from the world
your love stitched up my wounds
and somehow when you cut the string
only to try and stitch me up again and again
my wounds just got bigger and bigger
i was blind to the hate you carried
and the fake but glorious love
in your happiness you drenched me in tears
not only my own, not only yours
self destructiveness is what i became
when you took my precious soul
i hate to say your still a part of my life
to say your every tear stabs my heart
just like mine used to do to you
maybe if you only tore the stitches once
and left me in the dust like you were suppose to
i could have kept my sanity
but instead you stayed by my side
gloating your pointless glory
ripping my heart piece by piece
until i slowly broke apart
and then, finally, you left me for dead
hopeless, and broken beyond fixing
i ponder what once was
alone