Looking Closer

I can never say I love you
Can never ask the same
Can't ever say I miss you
can never want the same
Won't stop being bitter
Won't ask for help from you

What was stolen, words will never recover
Those words I need to find a cure
Words meant for a lover
If you could see through me, and now what I was thinking
When I was passing time with you
Time I thought worth taking
When you see my dreams, same as they taste
Nightmares none the less
Horrors you laid to waste

But my time has passed
When I never saw the clock
And when that alarm woke me
My heart turned back to rock
Been in this tomb for some time now
Sealed deep inside myself
Better this way maybe
So I can hurt no one else

Maybe you can see me
Look between me
And the dreaming
I thought I told you
Tried to hold you
Couldn't pull through

Since I've been here
I've only dreamt of you
How you're happy without me
When I thought I made you happy

So what if I stopped speaking?
I've kept on screaming
This panic, high pitched, no one hears
Maybe you can read it
All I seem to know
What you should understand
Words don't come as plainly through
As paper portrays them