Ventilation

We met and I thought that you would be the one
Who would change everything in my life.
I was terribly wrong.
I thought that once we connected things would be
Less hectic and my mind would find words to show how I feel
For real.
I was terribly wrong.
Now, I'm simply dazed and confused and I feel abused
Knowing that life in your world is perfectly fine without
The beat of my heart in it.
From the start, I pictured us in that house on the hill,
Picket fence in front and a little puppy running happily,
It was my fantasy,
Imagine me losing my mind over you.
Now, I think I'm through, through with wanting to love you.

No I'm not giving up, I just decided to listen up to the clues
That you through in my direction.
It was misdirection, a misfire on my part
Because you told me there was nothing way from the start.
I guess I'm just hard headed or love stricken.
But never the less I dropped my pride to listen
To the clues you through in my direction.

Miscommunication, this is ventilation from the tears of my eyes.
No lies when I say  that I tried to be persistent
I tried to sit and listen during the talks about
How you felt nothing for me.
And how fortunately we were friends
Until the end.
You obliterated me.
Shattered me.
Now, I'm dazed and confused and I feel abused
Knowing that life in your world is perfectly fine without
The beat of my heart in it. 

I just want to die, and cry.
But Ican't so I sit right here wonder why?

This is ventilation.