intorverted
introspection
of immaterial
protection scathed
by nothing
becoming
the nothing
and i fall into
the heart of things
delivering
my own sting
when i bend the rules
of truth
and what it stands for
escaping more
than jagged edges
of former selves
serving forever
just one
could i crawl into
older skins
feel the chill of them
all the while
remembering
what it was to be above
what it was to be loved
and can you look at me
and really see me
even when i cannot
see myself
and can you hold onto me
keep tight to me
when i am losing myself
listless dreaming
of fleeting negligence
and the hassle
of being interesting
the hassle
of being charming
cast around like a stone
skipping on darkness
absorbing the sky
unable to reflect
anything
so beautiful as
the way you look at me
when i am everything
do i have the will
to forgive me
even as you've
forgiven me
do i see my wealth
as tainted
my good fortune
soiled by these hands
by the mesmerizing
shimmer of ignorance
and self indulgence
do i still pretend
to be whole
and unspoiled
by any fault of my own
for the sake of something
greater
for the sake of something
good
is forgetting
is letting go
like saying i never hurt you
like saying i moved on
is it an insult
to your faith in me
is it an insult
to your devotion for me
Author notes
I wrote this poem about a week or two ago, I posted it, then took it back down. I don't know. It's a very personal write, as are all of mine, I suppose. I suppose the experiences and lessons learned are still just a bit too close to me.
Not looking for critical critiques for this one, as it's not really meant for "completion" or "publishing". Thank you.
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Comments
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"cast around like a stone
skipping on darkness"
It's good to read your words here again.
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appropriate title for this,, as introspection is sometimes best kept close, but what others can learn from it could be worth while... you always did have a way with words,I am glad you posted this,,, again...
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Good write, strong and emotional. Devotion and loyalty are always strong subjects and trusting and devoting yourself is hard especially for those who have been hurt...it's always hard to let things go...but it's awesome. You're awesome.
zita
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