4-7-09

This pain runs deep,
I feel like a lonely lost sheep.
He's the big bad wolf,
waiting to devour me.
His words cause these wounds,
Rotting away the good in me.
I want to end everything,
the way he makes me feel,
the way he makes the world seem unreal.
Hes like the darkness,
and I'm the light.
All in all we're the same,
but in the end,
I leave him feeling ashamed.
I dont know.
Whats the big deal?
Are these feelings even real?
Are they fake?
I dont know how much more of this I can take!
I wanna be with him,
to be his friend.
But he dont want nothin,,
but a good time,
what do you expect,
he's a man!
So..
I ask you,
my dear friend,
for advice,
should I tell him goodbye?
Shh.
Better yet,
second thought,
Dont say anything.
I know what your going to say.
Its the opposite of what Im wanting to hear.
It is just as I feard,
I'm sprung,
on a guy,
who dont know I'm alive!
But its fine,
Im gonna continue to front,
and pretend he isnt everything
I want!!