A Falling Star...My Nataliya.

Though I've never met you
I've loved you with all of me
And though I've never been so fortunate
As to see your lovely face with my eyes
I see you all too clearly in my mind.
I only have to close my eyes
And I can feel your presence,
But only by reaching through my own
Can I ever really touch you,
Be a part of your existence...
Baby, you could've been a star
With your brown-black hair and bronze skin
You are a force of nature all on your own
And eyes, your eyes
That could be brown or blue
See into the souls of those that came before you
And feel their greatest sins.
We used to lie together in the dark,
He and I...on the floor of the apartment
In the building he helped to rebuild...
Lying in dust and asbestos clouds
Talking about you, and then, unable to say the words
Holding each other in our deepest grief
And wondering what might have been...
If our beautiful one had survived the dark night...
Or the darkness within us.
But you were a force too great to release,
Maybe even more powerful than we had been.
I just want you to know
That you were conceived through love,
Though perhaps not consent...
Still, I loved him and I still do.
I bet you'd be beautiful like him...
Soulful, full-lipped and powerful...
Stubborn and fiery and hopelessly neurotic, like me...
I just think you should know
Neither one of us have forgotten you.
You were tiny and intangible when you left us,
But your short and untold story stretches for miles
As seen through the alternate flashes
Of starlight and shadow in our eyes.

Maybe in another life, another time
When your parents are older and wiser
Less selfish and more loving
You'll get your chance to take the world
Into your own fascinating, delicate hands
And announce yourself in the biggest way.
Somewhere, someday
You're gonna make it big, baby.

My body just wasn't enough to hold you
And I might never get to know you
But for us, there was no one like you
Sweet Nataliya Raziel.