True Escape

I have an unrelenting need to withdraw. To Escape. To abandon this place of self imposed confinement.
To disappear.
To runaway.
To run away from everything, and run away from absolutely nothing. To just truly run away.
No direction nor destination.
Just Pure Impulse.
I need an Escape.
An escape from reality.
I need to escape this so called reality that I was involuntarily born into. A reality that I was reluctantly forced to participate in.
I need to Escape.
I need to escape from my mind. I need that state of corrupt oblivion that I sometimes find myself fading into; An alternative reality wherein only i exist. I need that escape permanently.
I need an escape from the pain.
The Self Inflicted Pain.
I need an escape from the emptiness, the numbness, the nothingness.
I need an escape form the lack of....
....Everything....
I need an escape form the abundance of....
....Nothing....
I need to Escape.

Sometimes, I feel myself vanishing into the crowd. Moments of desolate insignificance.
I am no one.
What am I doing here. I don't belong here.
I am forever trapped in a grey haze.
I can't....
I won't....
I refuse....
to continue.
Render me hopeless.