Dear Mike,
It's been over 3 years and you're still in my heart.
Life has gone on as best as it could,
and now, you know, we're doing better
than we have in the past.
Better now, than when you left us.
Seeing you lying in that cardboard looking casket,
coated with a green waxy film,
instantly brought mountains of tears to my eyes.
At first, I couldn't even look at you,
it just hurt too much.
I don't think I wanted to believe what had happened.
I didn't want to see YOU, my fiancee, lying there.
I remember holding our four month old son,
your absolute pride and joy,
and wanting to tell you so much
that I loved you; but I didn't.
I was being selfish.
I couldn't bring myself to utter those three words
I had said to you so many times before;
And I apologize from every ounce of my being.
That day plays over in my mind
and I haven't been able to shake it.
I'm writing you to tell you now,
that I couldn't say those words to you
because this time,
you couldn't say them back to me.
Please forgive me,
Aimee
Author notes
"things I didn't say"
*Sigh*
He'd be SO proud of his son...
In a list
A contest entry
- ₢ Word's You Didn't Say ₢ by Fade to Black-.
475 points, ended April 17, 19 entries
Bronze trophy winner
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This is beautiful and so tenderly written from the soul. So many of us wait until we have to stand over a loved one to speak the truth of our hearts. For life is so very uncertain...I believe that your words of love have been heard and accepted...for LOVE goes on forever and knows no boundaries. This is precious and touches me deeply.
Blessings to you and yours~
Az
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Thank you, for such a sweet comment and for taking the time to stop by and read me.
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this brought tears to my eyes...I guess many will tell you how sad they are for you...but I think you have done yourself a huge favor in penning this and then sharing it with all want to read it...life isn't perfect and there is no such as a do over... but life is always what it is supposed to be...your only obligation is to yourself...we all win when we are able to give our love to ourselves...I'm certain he would be proud of the son YOU gave him...and he would be just as proud that you are his mother...after all he chose you...you have a heart of gold...it will not go unnoticed or unappreciated unless you are the one to do so...BTW I love the pic of you...so poignant and perfect for a deep thinker with a sensitive heart and soul....peace to you always in ALL ways...
-Kendal
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Awesome comment!! I do have to say that you boosted my ego just a pinch
Thank you for your words... It was rough the first year, but now... it's been a tad bit easier... Never though, will I forget the man that helped me to create the little guy that I love so much. Each year, on the date, I write in a journal, created just for his daddy. When he is old enough to read, and treasure it, I will pass it on to him.
Thanks for the comment about my picture... You look deep into people. I had no idea that picture would show me in that 'light'. Your photo too, is one of a thinker... someone who takes the time out for others. I will be keeping up with you!
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heartfelt, beautiful. I'm glad you were able to write this and get your thoughts out in such a way. very nice.
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Thank you for your comment and taking the time to read me!
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This is so sad
yet so beauiful.
You hung your heart on this page
not many can do that now a days.
amazing
thank you for sharing
keep the ink flowing.
Fire
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Thank you for commenting and reading me.
I am one of those who tend to hang their hearts on the page...
though I've noticed alot of others shy away.
Again...thank you.
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I'm pretty sure that he loves you as well. Maybe the words weren't spoken, but certainly he received the message.
Beautiful poem. Very sweet and heartfelt dedication to a loved one who's not on our world anymore.
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Thank you for reading and commenting.
He may not be on our world anymore... but he sure is watching us!!
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Dear Aimee, Mike knows that you love him, he hears the words you whisper to him and he is very proud of his Son, so never think that he's gone as he is there with you, watching over you and your Son. Beautifully written my dear friend.
Love Joan
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Thank you ever so much, sweet Joan.
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a very moving piece
sad and yet still bitter sweet, I am quite sure he heard you, felt the presence in thoughts that haunt you now, watch the stars he will shine back at you,
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Thank you for reading and leaving a great comment.
I am happy that you took the time to stop by
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it is a very moving peice one tat should be recognized
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wow
made me cry...great write...so sad, yet so powerful
good luck to you and in the contest!
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Thank you for the comment!!
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This brought tears to my eyes. Whatever you did or didn't say on that day, have no doubt that Mike knew how much you loved him. This write is so full of emotion, so being the feeling person that you are, i'm sure that how you felt for him when he was here was quite clear.
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Thank you for the awesome comment and stopping by to read.
That man was my world... now I guess I think of him as my after-world.
He will forever remain a part of me.
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What a hard subject to write about. So sad and heart breaking! Know my prayers are with you and your son. Reminds me of, Carrie Underwoods "Just a Dream" (listen to it if you havent)
I admire you for writing this, even though you didnt say it when he was here, atleast you finally did.
Thank you so much for entering, I hope this gave you some kind of release.
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I have heard that song..... it brings me to chills EVERYTIME I hear it! I picture the video and all... it's just an awesome song.
Thank you for the comment and the bronze.
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