You started crying and said that you had to go
That you couldn't talk about it right now.
It hurt so much to hear the tears falling,
that I let is slide, we hung up and I called you back.
I should have told you no, screamed NO! WE TALK ABOUT IT NOW!
I should have made you talk about it.
You were trying to tell me something and I was so blinded
You said you liked looking at my profile...
that the shark said everything to you...
so calm on the surface, but there your demise awaits
It was a phrase i stole from you years ago, I should have seen it
But it wasn't utnil tonight that I remebered
You were trying to tell me, you tried to ask for help and I didn't see it
I'm so sorry.
I did nothing...we should have talked about it.
Why didn't I say more than what I did?
I was afraid. Afraid of loosing you like I always do.
But dammit, I lost you completely.
You're gone forever, a cold white grave stone to mark your place...
I should have seen it. I should have dropped everything and visited you.
This never would have happened had I paid more attention to what you were saying.
William I am so sorry.
I'm so sorry I didn't hear your cries for help.
Please forgive me? or I'll never be able to forgive myself...
Author notes
"Things I didn't say" ...and its too late now, because you've passed on. I know it doesn't really fit the criteria...sorry. It was just more of a place for me to start dealing with this pain tonight.
A contest entry
- ₢ Word's You Didn't Say ₢ by Fade to Black-.
475 points, ended April 17, 19 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
not like it matters....
Comments
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Powerful
Laura this was so heart wrenching. I think one of the hardest parts of loss is that we can't confront or talk to the person again. When I lost my Dad I was so angry and then Wil passed. I hope writing your pain out will at least console you a little.
You have been such a strength to me after it happened. You have every right to feel grief and I know he would not want you to suffer. He isn't suffering anymore. He chose his demise. You have to believe that to him that would make sense.
Wil touched many lives and for me I'm very grateful that in the last year of his life he and I became good friends again.
I agree with Karma that typos should not take away from this raw opening of your soul.
Helen.
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Oh Miss Helen *hugs* I don't mean to feel like its my fault, but at times it burdens me so...the general consensus and is that he talked to me last...he said so many things that really make sense now. Its really hard. I know that hes at peace...but I still struggle back and forth to have my own peace without him. I'm so glad that the two of you were close again...and that you weren't just his psycho stalker, lol.
*hugs*
Laura
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Oh believe me this fits. Its pure..Its Raw...its heartbreaking. Oh gosh love, believe me I've been there...I'm here if you need an Ear,
For those of you who would seek out the spelling typos..DONT. This was raw, this was a poem that flowed from the authors heart/mind & soul. Don't even start to critique a piece and personal as this...
>>>Hugs<<< to you for opening up, I hope my contest helped you in a way. Again..if you need anything just ask.
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Thank You
Karma-
Thank you so much for your kind words. I've held a lot of these feelings inside and just seeing your contest brought them to the surface. Thank you.
Laura
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