I'll never forget that day. Two hours earlier, we were laughing and crying, and now, I'm waiting amongst the damp and dreariness of a hospital waiting room. You really begin to appreciate life then, when everything you live for is suddenly put on pause.
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"Ma'am, you can see him now."
The words I had been waiting to hear for hours on end. His face was such a vivid picture in my mind and I didn't want to forget it. I didn't want him to forget me. Walking into either death's waiting room or life's second chance, I knelt beside him and held his hand.
"Remember our song that we used to sing when we were having bad days? You made it up because you said you loved me." You winked as if to acknowledge yes, since you couldn't speak. Using your hands to communicate, you asked for a piece of paper. On it, you began to write. "Can I see what it says?" I had to ask. I was curious, obviously. I began to cry.
The note read:
"Darling, if I die tonight, do not be troubled. I love you and I know you love me. Things happen in this world that we cannot control and this apparently is one of them. I want you to find love again. Don't cripple your heart because of me. You deserve better than that, much better."
After I looked up from reading the note, I looked at the machines his helpless looking body was hooked up to and noticed his blood pressure was dropping. "No! You will not do this to me. I need you." Frantically, I cried out for medical help. Quickly, doctors and nurses rushed in, but they didn't help him long.
"Did you stabilize him?"
One of the nurses grabbed me by the shoulder, a small tear in the corner of her eye, and she asked me, "Can I talk to you outside please?"
I knew then, but I couldn't believe it. My heart sank and I died inside.
If recovery was ever to be possible, I know I can't do it alone. And right now, I'm more alone than ever.
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