Damaged Truth

how can you want me
when I am not sure
I have been beaten
abused, raped
and abandoned
shocked to my core
with no clue as to why
I was left in this world
wandering feebly
through a life filed with doubts
secretly wondering
what it's all about
why would anyone
want someone like me
shattered and broken
brought force-ably to her knees
I'm worth nothing
with nothing left to share
a broken heart
torn, ripped to shreds
in a battered soul
left blowing in the wind
nothing on the outside
speaks from within
a blob on the canvas
no colour left to give
uncertain and confused
why am I here
nothing to give
everything to fear
wandering listlessly
never secure
always guessing
never sure
why would you want me
my happiness is only a facade
it hides the hurt
the truth and the shame
never whole
slightly insane
always apart
the one to blame
afraid to feel
to let anyone near my heart
you break down the walls
brick by crushed brick
into my heart silently you slip
please don't hurt me
my soul is fragile, unsure
one small crack
will shatter the rest
into you
silently I begin to fall
trusting again
hoping to be whole
to you I cling
my rock in the sea
whispering, pleading
silently I beg
please, oh please
don't forget me