i don't know how
to tell him how sorry i am
or how much i miss his friendship
i don't know how
to look him in the eye
without feeling ashamed of the mess i've made
i wish i could turn back time
like cher.. i'd even wear the outfit
if it meant he'd forgive me for all of my stupid mistakes
i don't know how
to tell him i miss our walks and our talks
how we could always rely on each other for cuddles
i miss our sushi lunches
and our stops in chinatown
for an icey-ice, a couple of g&t's or some bbq duck
i miss how we used to laugh all the time
and write each other funny stories
and silly poems to help the days go by with a smile
i miss the little things, the big things
the mischief we've missed out on
i even miss having him ask every single day what i'm having for dinner
but how do i tell him this
when i know
there is nothing i can do
and i've already said too much
maybe i should try wearing the outfit?









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