Waiting

I fooled myself to thinking

I'm a better person than you

I wear this mask of ego

cause it hurts to see the truth.

This pain is necessary

when growing towards the light

with every dark discovery

strengthens what is right.

Waiting for the day

when I've got the courage enough

to say help me.

Kill my inhibition's.

It's not that I admit them

I'm not a victim

It was just easier that way.

Heavy with frustration.

Learn to let it go.

There's a different compensation

than the ones I used to know.

So, what am I afraid of?

This fear is a disease

Preventing any progress

to evolve beyond my means.

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Puppydog
August 27

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BEAUTIFUL!!!
This truly says so much of our inner being, our fear of trusting, fear of daring to reach out when not knowing what will be the result. 's
Just Myself
August 19

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Yes very detailed
I love the way fear is prtrayed here its almost as If i can feel every line ofd this poem and that is what makes me read on I especially like the dark qualities about your poetry keep writing for you inspire me
ceegeeess
June 30

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Fear is a hurdle!
This fear is a disease

Preventing any progress

to evolve beyond my means. " you are so true dear friend. It is a long time since you are on A.P.Wish you progress and happiness....
In.Your.Arms
April 13
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pretty well written. i can definately relate: seems like i've been waiting my whole life ;]
ImUrFadingMemory
April 11

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w0w
wow. i can really relate to this. and you did an amazing job! it was a very beautiful poem.

"Waiting for the day
when I've got the courage enough
to say help me."

That part seems so true to me. Some of us [like me] let ourselves drown in anxiety, depression, loss, and pain. we don't know how much reaching out to someone could be helpful instead of misunderstanding. If i had asked for hope yeeeeears ago i might not have as many scars or diagnosis' as i do now. it wouldn't have been as hard if i hadn't told myself to turn inward and shun the world away. i could have "evolved" but i prevented it unknowingly
i don't know if that's how you feel, but that is just how i felt when i read this beautiful piece you wrote.
~Madison~
stompsalot
April 7

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brilliant
WOW! This is so deep and poignant! Absolute brilliance... This is so well versed and can be related to many situations. Hmmm.. just soaking this one in and pondering.
You are so talented, thanks so much for sharing.
Blessings, hugs and *stomps