I

I am the girl who is still in pajamas at nearly 5 PM,
who tries to find her name in the stars,
to see if whoever made the sky
cared about her at all.

I am the girl who eats when she is depressed and knows she shouldn't,
and isn't overweight but might be soon.

I am the girl who writes about another person,
the person this girl wishes she was.

I wish for my own apartment,
someplace small and messy.

I wish for my mom to not think that A minus is such a bad grade,
that detention will be over quick.

I wish for faith in me,
even though I already have it,
even though I think I don't,
because this is what they tell me,
and I believe them
because I love them.

I believe in Heaven,
and that Eden exists, somewhere,
in a place with a starry sky.

I believe in books,
because each one leaves a little bit of itself
on me.

I believe in music,
because there is nothing so beautiful,
nothing that makes me feel so beautiful,
to make such a beautiful sound.

I believe in dreams,
because what else do we have?