drown me in your unhappiness

the universe won't let us stay together
because of the unaware and very much aware issues
that beam around our untouched souls.

you can only be happy, if one of us is happy.
the other lover has to wait her turn
cry her tears and flush down feelings of disappointment
and loneliness down a tunnel of failure.

hopefully it won't be tucked away
at the end of another bottle, glass cased
and whiskey stained.

how i wish for your downfall.

i want to be there to pick up
the jagged edges of your clenched up heart.
you said it beats for me, and only me.

yet, you kiss me in the dark,
tucked away from the rest of the world.
just like the last one...
how could i let myself fall
for charismatic bullshit.

however, i truly do believe you. who knew?

not because we are more alike
than we really do know.
because our differences
scream out like polar opposites
of plus signs and minuses.

we are bonded to attract to one another
even in the most uncomfortable
and unattainable situations.
the frequency streams beyond the unknown.

the white noise rings in my headphones
trying to repress the feelings of regret.
but all i know is that once you suck me in,
i am in, forced to run with emotions i never knew existed.

even if they all stem from physical attraction,
needs, wants, lust, and fuss.
i want to be the one you run to
not the one you need to run to.

drown me in your unhappiness
so i can be the one to smash the pieces
of this fucker upper.