Im Sorry

I'm sorry for all I've done
I'm sorry for the hurt I've put you through
I'm sorry for everything that's happened
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
They're the only words that comes to mind
Even though
I know
It's not enough
For you or me

It's not enough for me because it doesn't describe
Half
Of what I'm trying to tell you

It's not enough for you because it will never
Make
That smile on your face that I love
Magically appear

And I know I've said this before:

Who do i love more than the sky and its clouds?
More than all the world around me?
And will until time itself stops?
It's my daddy, and nobody will ever stop this love

No matter what we go through,
I will always love you
And no matter what happens between us
You will always be my loving
caring
amazing
wonderful
handsome
BEST
dad ever

and nothing will EVER change this

And I know that through time these kind of things happen
But I can't help feeling intense guilt for the way I acted
Every time I think back to that moment,
The time you walked in with a smile on your face
And in less than a minute
That smile shattered
Because of me
And I was stupid enough not to notice
And I was stupid enough to keep acting like a spoiled
idiot
Who doesn't have a heart
But the moment I stopped having those stupid thoughts about
An unnecessary object
I started crying.
And I started hating myself.
And I hate myself right now.

I have tears in my eyes as I write this
And they won't go away
So I feel as if
By doing this, I would let go of some of those feelings
But not until I see that genuin smile on your face
Light up the heavens above

DADDY I LOVE YOU SOOOO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
You can't even imagine
And I hope this letter will
Somehow
Help those feelings of hurt inside of you
Disappear
Faster...

Once again,,
i love you.