What kind of freak show can't even cry?
I try and I try for a leak from my eyes but no...
No flow of sorrow grows from below
I'm whole.
But entirely empty.
Full of nothing, out of stock.
Rock bottom, scraping the edges of...hollow cabinets.
No where i go, can I escape this rush of awareness
scared less of what I am, and more of what I will never be.
Can never see me not achieving until now...
How, can I muster? Conjure strength? Go on...
I can't, I'm so alone, so lost in my thoughts
and nobody knows, and they never will
Because I'm not strong enough to share with you
The despair that you, will never be, there to see me..
Through
Which is my fault.
But oh well right?
In a house full of people that harass me so, and although the grass may grow
They're blind enough to never know, so
therefore, how could they see my issues?
The tissues disappearing, Me smearing
Away, my invisible tears of frustration
Contemplation.. Silent of course.
Always silent..
Although inside I'm a lot more violent
Angry..HoStiLe, aggressive
Persistently
Regressive
Progressive?
No
Falling back into stacks of misery
No tack to hold me to the wall thus I fall
and Fall
and fall...
And that's not all, because I fall some more.
Through the floor to another dimension, where the tension
Has lost its extension
and ends, Still no bliss to extend to me..
Why is that? I wish I knew.
Author notes
This was a free write which is why it doesn't rhyme as much and I don't give a shit that the lines are crooked or I capitalized some sentences and not the others because i'm not going to correct it...its how i feel at the moment, feelings are imperfect are they not?
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Comments
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Impressive! As I was reading, I almost immediately connected with the pattern in which this was probably intended to be spoken in, and I liked it. This is deep and written with an intelligent and mature point of view. Thanks for sharing!
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this seems to have captured the essence of your moment perfectly, and sometimes leaving it raw is what we have to do. You are absolutely right, feelings are some of the most imperfect things I have felt. You shine even in darkness.
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Wow Cat this was almost as dark as mine lol. I really liked this but why? It really makes me wonder how you can look at someone and never know anything about them but have known them for a long time...
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I definitely feel this.loved the metaphors you've used to describe how you're feeling
don't correct anything...this is a very strong piece for me. I am so after emotions cause I have this need to feel...
No flow of sorrow grows from below
loved this line...I find it so brilliant
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