[ I only wish for the assuredness that ]

I only wish for the assuredness that
Everything could be explained,
But there's so many feelings
Bustling inside me,
I fear that they'll
Overcome me and
Force me to internally
Combust.
My brain is close to backfiring
From all the raging emotions
Consuming me.
The redundancy of my consciousness
Reverberates all through my very being.
But the shell of me,
Just meandering through
The emptying hallways,
Is only a facade so thorough
Not a single person can break through.
So thorough,
Even I cannot see through
The murky waters that
Make up the person
I pretend to be