Growing up with you has always been a challenge for me
Reaching out hoping to make you understand
Over and over again how much I am suffering
With every punch, slap, and kick that I receive from you
I just wish that you would get it over with and kill me
Never wanting to make it up to me, you continuously
Go out of your way to let me know how much you hate me
Upon the walls of my broken heart I try so hard to
Place my anger and animosity on the shelf
So that maybe the next time you might be kinder
Holding onto your empty promises of love and change
Only to find that in the end they were all lies
Using my weaknesses to your advantage you always
Leave me bleeding and lying helplessly on the floor
Disparraging and humiliating me with every word you speak
Never once do you ask me how I feel or if I need anything
Every conversation with you is always filled with cruelty as my
Veins continuously bubble in fear and anxiety
Each day I ask myself, "Is this the day he is going to kill me?"
Rage and extreme anger is all that you display
Breaking me down making me feel so worthless
Emerald eyes turn to crimson tears as I receive each blow
Always feeling like I am one step closer to death
Shaking uncontrollably as you pull my battered body by my feet
Hoping for someone or something to rescue me
Every second you drag me across the floor is just
Another sick way for you to prove how cold you really are
Ravens and crows start to caw outside the window
Telling me to be strong and break away from you
But I am so weak right now that I can barely breathe
Recalling the days of sunshine that once brightened up my world
Eager to find some positive reinforcements to help me along
All of my life I waited for someone loving, responsible, and
Kind to come along and take me away from the pain I felt
I never dreamed that one day you would ever be this way
Negotiating with you has always been impossible
Going out of my way each day to make you happy
Always trying to give you what you wanted and needed most
Struggled for years to try and change you into a better person
I have given up on you and I want you to know
That you didn't deserve me then and you don't now
I hope that other women will see you for what you are deep inside
So that no one else will ever feel the way that I do today, because of you
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