still torn, scared

So time has passed,
My brain is now back on track,
time does heal hurt,
but it doesnt seem to heal the fact.

I dream of you every night,
without fail your in my mind's eye,
secretly wanting, yet morning comes,
and again, my heart i hide.

Dreading the dreams to bring me back,
having you there loving me,
dreading the memories when awake,
tangled in my soul, its you i see.

I came back from the turmoil,
i journeyed the hard way back,
to reality and sanity so real,
but still its you i lack.

You said you would wait for me,
our loves chance at my return,
but the moment has come and gone,
your torn though i have learnt.

Both of us in limbo,
not knowing where to go,
do we dare fall again,
we dont know.

So scared to be us,
after this hard trip,
too scared to let each other go,
so alone we both sit.

Incomplete without the other,
two halves of one,
will i let you back in,
for more days in the sun...

I wish i wasnt scared,
i dont know who i am without you,
but then i have started again in life,
back to reality, but we're not through

Its a mystery where we will end,
will we ever?
i dont think we could,
when we both vowed for our forever...