Fighting myself inside .
Trying not to break .
Trying not to let the pain take over .
Trying not to let the rage leak .
Fighting for the air I can't help but need to breath .
Feeling the constriction in my throat as the pressure builds .
Feeling the tears pour like a broken dam ...
Fighting to keep the pain from increasing even more .
Trying not to break ... I'm trying not to break .
I want to kill .
I want to maim .
I want to watch everyone bleed , and everything burn .
Chaos isn't what I want , Mayhem isn't what I want .
Annihilation , is all I want .
I Have loved you from the start , and still do .
I would give everything to make you happy ...
To hear you laugh , all the time .
To hear you scream out in ecstasy , when we make love .
To hear your heartbeat , when I put my head on your breast .
To smell your skin , when we lay together ...
To breath in , as you breath out ...
To have meaning , because I'm with you .
To kiss you , just to taste your essence .
So many things , Just because I need you ...
But the Pain , Makes me cry , and you don't know why ...
And I can't tell you , that I'm crying because I'm getting closer to breaking .
I can't tell you that I am going to release the Rage , that just Won't go away ...
You are my savior , But even you can't save me .
You are my life , but even you can't keep me alive ...
You are my soul , ...But even you can't control it .
You are everything I love , and I cannot hurt you .
But everything else , I have to kill , I have to hurt , I have to destroy , I have to annihilate , and Send all of myself into oblivion .
Because your the only one that truly loves me .
Because You make me weak .
Because You make me happy , And I'm not supposed to be .
I'm crying , Can't you see ?
I'm fighting , as hard as I can .
I'm shaking .
I'm overheating .
I'm breaking .
I'm snapping .
I'm cracking .
I'm dieing .
I'm in love with you ...
I'm gone ...
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I once, had, a nervous a breakdown. That involved homicidal behavior tenancies.
I felt as if I was somehow a demon brought to this world to do nothing but destroy and ruin. I still cant believe the horrifying thoughts and images that raced thru my mind during that time. This put me back there, for a moment, and I didn't like it. (my own memories, not your work!)
I'm sorry.
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Find absolutely no point in writing something , if it is not Thought Provoking , And I do not necessarily care what it provokes ,heheh . But the darkness is something ...some of us have to live with everyday ... Love... Is a Cruel fate --.--
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good job
This is very dark. I really like how you end the poem. "Im gone."
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Lass ...
The way I feel , I should be ...
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I don't know what to say exactly!
This is an amazing piece. Its very real and extra raw! I love the dept you put behind it.. this piece I can tell is very true! I love it, well done Draiden!
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Thanks burgess
But Its really not that good , even if it is honesty , I can still feel more of this getting ready to pour out , but id much rather be doing what it says ...
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I feel the waves of grief this piece holds, very sad and dark. Its well written and very deep,great piece. I hope you feel better someday soon ~hugs~
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No time soon love ...
Thank you for the comment , But Im just building up for the climax so to speak ...
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