I feel mind fucked.
My head
throbs with emptiness
while I stare
blankly; ahead.
No emotions, but regret.
No thoughts left in an empty head.
Life seems
a disappointment.
Was supposed to be full of potentional.
Of possibility. Always provided for and supported.
Always did well before. But,
Now it slips through my fingers.
A liquid mix of grey matter mush and blood. All that is left of my mind
quickly draining from my ears.
The harder I try to catch it, the more it spills till
finally
I just let it go.
It just keeps pouring out until, it slows, to a
Drip
Drip
Drop
It's gone.
Just a puddle on the floor in front of me.
The closest I can get to recovering it, is to play in it.
Raped of all thought.
Left and Forgotten squealing for joy in my new found puddle.
Oblivious to what I have lost.
Author notes
Wrote this during diff eq after a thermo test left me feeling like I need to reevaluate what I am going to do with my life. I originally wrote it as a paragraph and, when I typed it, tried to add pauses where I wanted. Commas get a brief pause, periods slightly longer, new lines longest pauses. Never wrote anything like this before.
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