Just turned seventeen,
Time stood still when our eyes met,
My heart skipped beats,
My breath vanished into the coolness of night,
Our lips interlocked,
Proceeding in a pilgrim's prayer,
Our eyes lost in the sea of blue,
Our hearts falling in love.
I could not see myself without you,
I needed you in my life,
I needed you to be with me,
I needed to hear you say you love me,
I needed to hear,
I loved to hear,
All the promises you made.
Time had passed,
You were far away,
My heart ached for your embracing touch,
But began to fear what time had made you become.
We were in love,
So I thought,
But as time passed,
You only wanted what was forbidden,
You wanted what I wanted to keep,
You wanted to be my first.
I said no,
And you backed off,
We went back to the way it was before,
And pretended none of that was said,
We kept falling in love,
And you said you wanted me forever,
You could not stand to be without me,
You needed my touch,
You wanted me to be your wife,
I said I would be once I was older,
And you were happy,
But as that time passed,
Me still seventeen,
You tried once again to pick the forbidden fruit.
As I kept saying no,
You became madder,
You turned into a monster,
You threatened me,
You threatened you get what you wanted no matter what it took,
You threatened me with pain,
With fear,
You threatened to take what I wanted to keep,
All you ever wanted was that,
You did not really love me the way you said you did.
Now I live in fear and pain,
Hiding what you have done,
I cannot go home without seeing your face,
Even though you are miles away,
The false love,
The pain,
The abuse in various ways,
My heart,
Shattered by your wrongful love,
My life ruined and in constant fear,
Fear,
I cannot hide,
And I cannot stop what you have become.
Author notes
To all of those who have been abused in any way by someone who claims to love you, you don't have to live that way. Though it may seem hard to find the way out and to leave, it is the best thing to do. I am only seventeen. I just turned seventeen when this relationship had started. He's in the army and is a lot stronger than me. When he started threatening me in these ways I did not know what to do. I was scared. I have only told a few people about this during this last week. I stayed in this relationship for almost a year and just got out of it almost a month and a half ago. I am still living my life in fear but I know only time will heal this pain and I am trying to move on with my life. This is not a relationship anyone should have to be in and I am thankful and praise God that I was able to get out of it when I did. Just be strong and know that there is hope and a better life and love out there than this. Even though it may be hard to believe that there is and it will be hard to trust and to love a guy ever again after everything that he has said to me and what he was going to do to me. If you ever need to talk I am hear and please don't be afraid. Sometimes having someone to talk to who have been in these shoes is the very helpful. Stay strong, believe and don't give up hope.
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I can relate to what you're saying in this.. But Ive found someone who i can trust, a lot of others like us don't, because they're scared.. right?
Well, this is a real like, eye opener.
Especially the little message at the end,
I think it might help a lot of people, to let them know that they aren't alone, and to never give up. Because theres always someone.
I don't think i can give any criticism.
A really meaningful piece.
And very well written.
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