Never Enough

You read my soul and play with my emotions
and I'm left with the heartache and pain that you leave behind.
You claim that you need me, you want me,
but yet here I am... alone and unloved.
I was the one who stood by your side even when I knew things were not what they should be,
but yet here I am still defending you while you turn your back on me.
Never once did I offer to tell you "No, I don't want this",
but yet here I am hearing those words come from your mouth.

Oh the sorrows of life that we bring upon ourselves,
but those brought on by you are far worse than any nightmare I can fathom.
By night you are the one I long for,
the ultimate companion,
the one that I can cling to and never let go of.
MY secret lover.
By day we exist only in two worlds separated by a thin line of morality,
Barriers that if crossed, lead to a life full of hatred, torment, ridicule;
Lines that we dare not cross while others watch.

When times are hard you call upon me for my shoulder,
for my love,
for my compassion...
I fear it's not enough to satisfy your hungry needs of a late night fling.
I want to be that person you're with so others can see
I long to be that person you intertwine fingers with and walk down the street,
I NEED to be that person you love and call for every night
but truth of the matter is...
In your eyes, I'll never be enough.